A Single Daddy’s Blog

I am sure I am not the only one, when the perfect sequence of buttons are pushed I fly off the handle. It happens. And I did last Thursday. I am sure there was a better way to handle it, although I was faced with making a decision I was not comfortable with and even though I needed to make it, I was very upset about it. And when my past was thrown at me, I went over the edge. For all purposes, I am sorry. You know who I am writing this too, so I will leave it nameless, although I am sorry.

Last week and into this weekend has been pretty trying. I am sure God has a reason for it all, although I really dislike the drama that has been placed in my lap.

Last week, part of my past came back claiming to care about me, culminating in that ‘past’ person telling me I was not ‘allowed’ to write about them (on any blog) anymore and me telling them never to contact me again. Although I guess that was the best I could have expected. In the end, we never saw eye to eye and this way is probably better because we will live our lives and move forward. Well at least the person I am referring to will. I choose to go no where, although that is another story for another blog.

In other news, a neighbor, that I considered a close friend, and I have not been speaking to each other. I am still pretty hazy as to why, although I think I am ‘blind’ and that may be this neighbor’s whole issue with me. (I am summarizing generally.)

Then in a semi-related issue, the Assistant Principal at Anastasia’s school lied to me on Friday about a write-up, according to him, she never got. Although I have an email from the aide that wrote her up proving she was written up, and Anastasia telling me that she got written up for things she never did.

Now, let me be the first to say, I KNOW Anastasia lies, ALOT. I have been working with her on that. Although, why would the aide write me an email telling me they are ’sorry’ and they had ‘no choice’ other than to write her up? Then, that very day when Anastasia came home she told me the story with no prompting. She told me about how the Asst Principal called her to his office because of this write up, she said she didn’t do any of it, he called the student she supposedly ‘touched’ and that student told the Asst. Principal that Anastasia never ‘touched’ him. The Asst. Principal threw away the write up and sent Anastasia back to class. This all according to Anastasia.

Then, on Friday I go to the school and question the Asst. Principal about the write up and he tells me there was none.

Now again, I know Anastasia lies, although she lies to keep herself out of trouble, at least in her thoughts, that’s why she lies. In this case, Anastasia told me about the write up without me asking. If Anastasia had the slightest thought she would get in trouble she would have hid it like she does with EVERYTHING else. And I have an email from the aide. Yet the Asst. Principal denies it all.

Simple Answer: Something ain’t stirring the Kool-Aid at Anastasia’s school. And the Assistant Principal is definitely lying.

So, I am off to start my Monday. I had a rough weekend with Anastasia, she has decided to start giving me attitude on and off. So she was grounded most the weekend.

Anastasia got off the bus today with gum in her hair. Not cool.

Turns out, most of the kids on the bus like to make fun of her and few of her friends.

Today they were pouring water on her, throwing food at her and ultimately put gum in her hair.

If course she got off the bus crying and ran home. And as soon as she got there I ran to the bus, had the bus driver come outside and explain to me how this happened on his bus.

His response, “I drive the bus, that’s what MY job is.”

Of course this did not sit well with me. I called the bus dispatch and ultimately the director in charge of the busses for this area.

Oh, and yes, I was hot!

I am waiting to hear back from
the director and find out what she is going to do about this, because this is an every day occurance on this bus and it has to be stopped.

The school is K through 8, so there is already enough issues with control and the kids not mixing well, then add a non-attentive bus driver and all he’ll breaks lose every day.

I got enough emotions going on, I sure don’t need Anastasia having a horrible days also.

Oh, and by the way, Canola Oil works wonders for getting gum out of hair. Thanks to my sister for figuring that one out.

I realized late last night in another one of my sleepless night thinking sprees that I have no answers. I have no suggestions and no illusions about today or tomorrow.

I realized I am a silly idiot with dreams in my head that simply do not come true. There is no happily ever-after or the ‘one’ that actually makes you feel like you are wanted.

Just a cold hard reality that no matter where you live or how close or bizarre the next ‘one’ is, I am not wanted.

A hard truth to swallow. I am not wanted.

Sorry if you thought this post would have something to do with single parenting, although I guess it does, cause I have to figure out how to hide my shame and truth from my little one. So much for teaching her not to lie.

Well, Easter has come and gone and so has Anastasia’s birthday. Once again, Anastasia is spoiled. I know this, yet she is my only child, so, am I wrong for spoiling her? The jury is still out on that one.

Anyway, I changed my phone number recently because Anastasia’s school will not call me long distance.

Let me explain.

I only have a cell phone, no house phone. I can’t justify getting a house phone when my cell phone is with me all the time and a house phone would cost close to the same amount, and in addition to, my cell phone bill. So when I moved to Arizona from Las Vegas I didn’t change my cell phone number. Although it has caused an issue a few times at Anastasia’s school because they will not call a long distance number.

So I used this ‘reason’ to justify switching to AT&T and getting a new shiny iPhone. I love the iPhone, although I am not to thrilled with AT&T. We will see how it goes. So that is the ‘new’ part.

Now on to the surprising part.

About a year ago I broke up with a girl I was dating for almost six years. I have written plenty on this and I refuse to write anymore about the relationship or break up, although in the past few weeks I was a little surprised.

After almost six years you would think that anyone I was dating for that long would have contacted Anastasia just to wish her a Happy Birthday. Now, I understand that I changed my number and I will not get texts sent to the old number, although the old number does still forward to the new number and will forward for the next year or so. I just thought it a little strange that I or Anastasia did not get a call, text, card, nothing from my ex. Like I said, maybe it is the fact that she did, and I just didn’t get it, who knows.

I haven’t said anything and I am pretty sure Anastasia has not thought about it. So, I guess it’s ‘no harm, no foul.’

Anastasia has AIMS testing this week. I guess I should probably find out what AIMS stands for although I know it is academic testing for the children to find out how they rate among the rest of the country. I have heard that it also determines the amount of funding a school will get  the following year based on how well or how poor the children perform.

Guess I will do some research today. ;)