So last night was my daughter’s Talent Show at her school. I was really disappointed for the kids because it was held in the cafeteria and there was a basketball game goin on in the gym, right in the next room…
The sound system was not great and all the parents had to strain to hear their kids performing.
Still, I was proud of my little girl. She got up in front of everyone and sang. :)
Here is the video, Anastasia is on the right.
Seems it is easy for me to get wrapped up in what Anastasia tells me and take it for face value. Bad idea.
Anastasia is ten. No matter how mature she acts, she is ten. She has the memory and creativeness of a ten year old.
My mistake was taking what my little ten year old said as face value instead of questioning the person the tales were about.
I got wrapped up in the moment and all my past came back and suddenly I was fighting for myself again. Because Anastasia tried to tell me what she remembered mixed with what she felt mixed with something she was trying to tell me.
I am sorry. I am sorry to my neighbor who should have never had to deal with this. I am sorry to Anastasia who should have never been in the middle of this. I made a promise this will never happen again, and it will not.
I am single. That fact is pretty obvious considering the blog name. I have full custody of Anastasia and her mother saw Anastasia for the first time in almost 7 years just before Christmas.
Reality is; I never thought I would be here raising my daughter on my own. I never thought I would be single at this age in life. I was a dealt a set of cards and I played them. I am exceptionally happy with the relationship I have with my daughter. Sure she lies, although I did too when I was little.
No one will ever come between my daughter and I. That is a picture I have painted for Anastasia since she was younger. And it seems in recent months Anastasia has lost sight of that fact. So I have restated it several times to her. There is a bond that children have with their parents and that needs to be made clear to children over and over again.
I know I have not done a good job of this is something I need to do a much better job with.
Today I got a text from my daughter while I was shaving. She wrote, “Friends, Can I bring my webkins to school today since we have a half day? Please, Please!”
I immediately wrote back to her with a simple, “Yes”
I thought about her text for a second after I sent my response and thought it was kind of an oxymoron that she was asking me ‘as a friend’ if she could bring her Webkins to school. I mean, clearly I needed to make a parental decision when I answered her. I laughed to myself and continued my morning rituals of getting ready.
A little later on she sent me another text that said, “Ty, Ty, Ty, Luv you lots!” Her and I needed to have a talk.
When I saw her in the kitchen a little later I told her that it was kind of hard to be her friend when she is asking me permission to do something. She made that face I love, the one that tells me, “Oh yeah, you’re right.” She understood what I was saying. :)
Then I mentioned to her about the love text she sent. I explained that love is not something that changes simply because I do or do not let her do something. She got that too I think.
Oh yeah, and the purple and black striped tights are in the trash. She could not come up with the last time she wore them when I asked her. So little white lie resulted in the tights going in the trash. I really disliked those tights anyways. :)
Just not sure what Anastasia’s fascination is with these HALLOWEEN tights, although she typically asks once a week if she can wear them. I finally said yes to her today.
She told me she wore them before and in the rush to get out of the house this morning I didn’t ask her when, although that is on my list to talk to her about tonight.
I will post pictures when she gets home…..
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