I have been trying to get this blog and keep it updated although I have been pretty busy. Working for myself in this economy is NOT easy. And since I am the only provider for Anastasia, if I am not making money, no one else is for us.
So, I hope you bare with me while I work my butt off trying to make some money to get my daughter and I ahead in the world.
Thanks.
I am single. That fact is pretty obvious considering the blog name. I have full custody of Anastasia and her mother saw Anastasia for the first time in almost 7 years just before Christmas.
Reality is; I never thought I would be here raising my daughter on my own. I never thought I would be single at this age in life. I was a dealt a set of cards and I played them. I am exceptionally happy with the relationship I have with my daughter. Sure she lies, although I did too when I was little.
No one will ever come between my daughter and I. That is a picture I have painted for Anastasia since she was younger. And it seems in recent months Anastasia has lost sight of that fact. So I have restated it several times to her. There is a bond that children have with their parents and that needs to be made clear to children over and over again.
I know I have not done a good job of this is something I need to do a much better job with.
Seems like 2008 was a year full of change for my daughter and I. I got out of a 5 year relationship with my girlfriend, my daughter and moved to Arizona, I quit my job to start my own business, my daughters mother resurfaced, changed her life and is now working to be an active part of her daughters life and I have lost more than just my heart over the course of the year.
It was a good year with plenty of bumps and changes. I guess that is what we need every once in a while to make us better people.
I am looking forward to 2009 with renewed hope in my business. I take with me the hard lessons I learned the year before in love and life.
Anastasia and I have had a few defining moments in the past few days and I feel like some how, some way we get each other just that much more.
I wish you the best for 2009 and keep coming back as I chronicle the lives of my daughter, myself and those around us. :)
I have had to face some pretty hard facts in the last 48 hours. My life as it seems and everything as I know it is different. My heart is a mess, I would say broken, although how can you describe a heart that is more like pea soup just sloshing around with no feeling broken? I know it doesn’t feel broken, I just feels absent. Like I lost something that I needed to breath, for life, for .. does it really matter anymore?
Let me get to the point.
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